I’m a bit out of sorts today. Scott goes in for a colonoscopy tomorrow. He likes to refer to it as “colorectal camera therapy”.  It brings up a bunch of emotional issues from his cancer days and I tend to just get emotional about every little thing in the days leading up to it. I am sure everything will be fine but there is a piece of me that worries. I mean come on, who the heck would ever think that we would have ever heard the words Cancer in the first place.


I have been on the verge of tears for the past week and not really attributing any part of it to what was coming up but now I realize – I am scared.  There i said it. S C A R E D. The what ifs keep coming up –and again, its a routine scan so I know much of my anxiety is not founded but doesn’t make it any less real.

I always say Even though the Cancer is gone, the Cancer never goes away.

I think I am more uneasy about it all than he is -but I always am anyway.  It’s my job and it’s our ying yang thing. I take care of him and he takes care of me! That’s how it works and it’s why we have been together for 17 years and still like each other, a lot.

So if I can ask a favor, put some good energy out there for us as we head in tomorrow morning. I am expecting no surprises but it never helps to have others putting their energy around it as well. So if you could, I would be really grateful.

Here’s a few interesting articles I have found around the web this weekend:

Integrity. I speak of this often and I see many people forgetting about integrity in life and / or business. In essence, this means NOT being a dick or an a**hole, not selling out and simply doing the things that are true to your heart and gut instincts.

Whatever it is you do, do your best, period. Nothing less will suffice.

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